feelin’ out of sorts

my head hurts, my heart is beating fast… I feel nervous, for what, I don’t know… I can’t shake off this funny feeling that I’m having… I feel worried, I feel like nothing is going right these days… and I find out from other sister that my sister in Phils just got mugged…. isn’t that just great!!!(I’m being ironic, here, ok) she said she just withrew money from the bank and divided it in half and placed it in 2 diff pockets… then someone put an arm around her and mugged her… can you believe that?

I think I’m having an anxiety attack or something… I feel like, like I don’t know, I really can’t explain it… I got it!!! I feel helpless!!! that’s how I feel…

and my mom’s rantings doesn’t help… she asks how much we have in debt… where we spent it on… she expects me to remember where we spent everything… from months ago???? hello…. I know we said, we’ll buy a unit in their building, but seeing so many disadvantages to it that I’m getting confused on what to do!!!